Pearlyn- My Shadows

2007-04-12T20:44:00.000+08:00

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2007-03-21T13:37:00.000+08:00

There are so many things that I wanna talk about that I often end up not putting anything down in the end.

It gets tideous and frustrating especially when there's so many things to say yet I can't recall them all and partly because it's kinda personal and i'm not into freestyle - personal - thoughts online exhibitionista?

Get what I mean?

Anyway, besides the unbearable humidity that makes me sweat like nuts when i'm outta the house and having my biological clock all screwed up, (how about sleeping at 1am and wakingat 5 am? its way N O T cool ) i'm currently having a momentum of being sleep deprived. Had only 4 hours of sleep for the past 2 days and it's physically draining moi and that caused me to have a *private - day - off* today.. bummer~ I'd overslept despite my alarm clock ringing not once but thrice. It's only 2 pm and as i'm writing this i'm oh well, *yawning~

Watched Hannibal Rising the day before..utterly gruesome psychotic killings to spur the trade the movie but the ending wasn't as good as I thought it'll be.. and at least, shouldn't Gongli have some incestuous affair with Hannibal? Well well, had a big sccop of my most crave Buds green tea ice-cream with Wang4 Wang4Xue2Bing3 ( the kind that's marinated with sea - salt and snow powder instead of the usual japanese soya sauce flavoured) Heavenly!

It has been a long long time since my beach bum days and am I glad to having the genetically fair skinned genes! Tanned or fair skinned? Preference goes to the latter! Had been thinking of heading down to sentosa one of this days.. my pals says Cafe Del Mar is good!

!Sun Sky Sea Sand!

P.s: I'd been introduced to this company that's affliated to mediacorp about modeling projects and stuffs. should I go? should I go? No need for portfolio fees and stuffs though. Is my intuition telling me that it's not gonna be a waste of time?

2007-03-17T01:24:00.000+08:00

And I'm into some nostalgia now~ My pretty lil musings~

My PrettyFit & BeetleBug membership card.. Not a big deal but it's got a lovely translucent design. sweet sweet sweet!
My SKINNIE wallet
My sparkling Pink crystal ring
My Slim Motorola phone
My Pink swatch~

2007-03-11T00:55:00.000+08:00

Everyone's a star in the eyes of Jesus

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Hola All!

My day started right. Slept late and woke up late, felt uber rejuvenated...with the lovely sleep I had last night, rather, It's Campus Saturday... the theme is - "GLAMMY AWARDS!"

Had a "MASSIVE" indecisiveness (LOL it's a gal thing to look good ^^) at noon pondering about what to wear and match with.

Firstly, the message came with a spectacular idea to look glamorous-and-be-your-ideal-star hint*.Secondly, knowing that I'm having my attachment now in town gives me lesser time for a shopping spree. And all i did was to match a long tube top that's to my hips with a mini black flair skirt to make it look like a LBD. Surprised, the combo worked.. so gals, mix and match your ole fashion sense, you'll never know what new style you'll rack up. And who's my ideal star? - Myself. n Jesus^^

From a group of whimsical screaming crowd who cheers u on when you step out of da lift; to a sign-your-name signature board; to a big board hand stamp; they'd done it all. Thats GLAMOUR!

2007-03-06T20:41:00.000+08:00

Jazz by da beach, Groove to da tides..

~When Harry met Sally...

Witnessing my gal pal breaking up with her guy was distressing. the blues, the tears, the sorrows.. It wasn't easy comforting both parties. And it's always a tough decision whether to remain friends with an ex. Complicated? definitely..

Enough said.. bemused, and I'm recollecting the past; my past. Love is always like a raging-hot starburst of extravagant emotionalism and it will facilely go downhill when not handled properly.

My personal experience with 2 ex boyfriends.

When I was younger, breaking up wasn't hard to do. I was 16 then and perhaps of the age factor, I doubt the "love" I was experiencing at that time was "Love" at all. It was the then, norm- puppy love.. Thus, breaking up was easy and we moved on pretty much quickly.

As I grew older, the bad breakup experience I had wasn't about me it was more about the guy. He was younger. It was a break up that was emotionally heart-wrenching and a turmoil that builds up rage. As it was then the first time I truly given my heart to someone and he shattered it to a million pieces. It's the dreaded four-word phrase-" Can we be friends?" It's a classic break-up line, but it's also an issue that must be faced when a relationship hits the rocks. In reality, the questions ought to be - should we be friends?

It's true that when a person leaves, he or she will take a piece of you with him/her.

Enough of my ramblings.. here are 3 posts written at the saddest point of my life, a grave full of memories;

thursday, august 31,2006

A Part of Me Died When I let You Go...

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like it was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor ...

--My Shadows has landed-- Thursday, August 31, 2006"
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Silent Nights and Solitary Days..
Ever felt lonely? Yes that's right.. The feeling of loneliness sucks..Loneliness is not the abscence of faces. It is the absence of intimacy. Loneliness doesn't come from being alone; it comes from feeling alone. Feeling as if you are... perhaps.. facing death alone? facing diseases alone? facing the future alone."I feel so alone, does anyone care?" Bags of loneliness shows up everywhere.. They litter the floors of pubs and clubs.

We drag them into parties and usually drag them back out. You'll spot them near the desk of the studious overworker, beside the table of the overeater, and on the night stand of the one night stand. As humans, we'll try anything to unload our loneliness. This one is one bag that we want to drop quickly.When u're lonely, you do the same in life.. pulling stuffs off the shelf, not because you need it, but because you are hungry for L.O.V.E. ...

And why so? Because we fear facing life alone. For fear of not fitting in, we take drugs..(There goes drug addicts). For fear of standing out, we wear the clothes... For fear of going unnoticed, we dress to seduce or to impress (there goes the shopaholic) For fear of sleeping alone, we sleep with anyone (there goes the"one-night-standers"). For fear of not being loved, we search for love in all the wrong places... As the saying goes.. "But all that changes when we discover God's perfect love. And perfect love cast out fear".Loneliness.. Could it be one of the finest gift? To make one learn to grow? Say.. learn to be more independent? or mature? If a season of solitude is His way to teach you to hear his song, don't you think it's worth it?So do I.

To my Dear Sweet pixie Fangwen, one day when you do feel lonely do remember me.. though there are a couple of emotional troubles that are hard for me to digest at this point of my life... I'll still and will be.. There for you...
--My Shadows has landed--Wednesday, August 30, 2006
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Wednesday, August 30, 2006
I wish.. I hope.. I ponder..
So much over it..
This is the day when I saw you once again..With them.. Or should I say, with her..
I felt it was normal..For you to hang out with them.I felt perfectly fine..
But what I know was a different story.I heard her picture was in your phone as a display..
I chose to give you the benefit of doubt.But to my avail, things are pointing to the wrong direction..

Time & time, I saw you guys together..And each time when I saw you, you never fail to look flustered.
I know that there's another guy around.. But so what?Yes! "Pearlyn, YOU SHOULDN'T JUMP INTO CONCLUSION"NO "Pearlyn YOU SHOULDN'T PONDER SO MUCH OVER IT,YOU GUYS HAVE BROKEN UP!"
- Thats what i always tell myself..

But hey.. I've not move on.I don't wanna add on to your stress..
But right now, you are adding on to mine..Your so icey attitude towards me is so hard for me to bear.
At least, at the very very least..Tell me, what's on your mind..Are you in love with her?
I'm so, so afraid that I'll fall into depression..Till now, I still hope and wish and pray that 1 day you'll come back for me..That the 3 months is still on.Is our 1 year 3 months relationship over just like that?At this point I feel betrayed by you..I don't hate you Darling..I hate myself for loving you.. much too much..
.--My Shadows has landed--Wednesday, August 30, 2006

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And these ordeals made me realise how fragile L-O-V-E is. It was a whirlwind experience that made grew up. Becoming a much much mature laydee as days go by. Knowing what I want and knowing what I need in the different pace of my life. Well, after all its better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all right?

Love love love *_~

2007-02-23T20:40:00.001+08:00

P.S: It's the 3rd of March. not the 23rd of Feb!

Hey dearies, like I said in my previous post; I'd been tied up to my neck lately, chained up like a pup! - VERY VERY BUZZZYYY! LOL

Hardly had anytime for myself to sit down relax or simply have a cup of tea and read my fave magazines; play with my beloved puppy; chill out with my friends and church-mates; neither do I get to see my mum- I'll be away for school when she's awake and she'll be asleep when i'm home .sadly- but yes thats da case I miss home-cooked food..

Daily activities are filled with school projects and work study from a "good" 830 am to 11PM daily! and this ordeal made me realise how important Friends and LOVE are. and having LOVE from LOVE Himself is the Ultimate of the Ultimate Source. "What? Pearlyn's attached?" Yes.. She's attached to Jesus. =)

A friend is someone we turn to

when our spirits need a lift.

A friend is someone we treasure

for our friendship is a gift.

A friend is someone who fills our lives

with beauty, joy, and grace.

And makes the whole world we live in

a better and happier place.

Ain't it a great to celebrate who and whom you already have. What's good and what's not?

and I'm awesome;y elated to have my church-mates all around with this poem, it guilelessly reminds me of them *Blissful* *_~

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Invited Bev to a gala premiere with me on Monday @ Vivo's GV. Movie:" I'm a cyborg but it's okay"- a hilarious movie. who's the cast? " none other then the macho Rain lol!" Rain Rain come again come again another day!

And what are gals to do when they're bored while waiting for da movie to play? " It's cammeoooOOo WHORING time!!

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I Pray that I'll have a snazzy lazy week ahead! Til next time!!

Jesus loving always.

2007-02-18T23:41:00.000+08:00

It's a new year... A year of New Beginnings for Everyone~.

Blessed Lunar New Year to all!

ALRIGHT I declare i simply love Chinese New Year as its a time to get fat and nobody cares!

How beautiful the turning of the new year! To me, it's a moment of artificial yet profound.. Adjusting dates as they go round and round. It's weird looking back and soon I realised time passes so quickly that I could recall events that happened last new year with a finger snap*

Just like new hope new harboured in old-fashioned cheer, this new year is no different from the past, with new faces from young and old, congrats to my cousin who has a new born son Tolbey - his a cutie but sadly he's facing sorta stranger anxiety -_-.. so he's a nono to cuddle.

Family Reunion dinner @ Home Sweet Home.

It's a norm having dinner at restaurants for my family.. and this year is time for a change. Despite all the anxieties and adversities they went through... It's all yummylicious and good! 5 star restaurant quality cuisines! Bravo to these LOVELY HOT MAMAS they made everything good & possible! ^_*

Close up your tired eye; close up the day. Bid the old year goodbye and miracle's on its way..

2007-02-14T09:32:00.000+08:00

And I wish y'all .....

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EveryFebruary 14 came and went.. so,
ever wonder whats V day all about?

Here's a lil history on Valentines day where I've googled outta curiousity.

Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday?

The history of Valentine's Day -- and its patron saint -- is shrouded in mystery.

But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.

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One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men -- his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

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SO, having been there, done that, LOVERS of THE WORLD... UNITE!

and here's a lil bossanova romance de armour musings dedicated to you guys..

Buhbye!! Peace&love ^_*

2007-02-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

.Love Actually.

A seminar thats speaks of man and woman coming together as man and wife in the presence of Christ in Church (NewCreationChurch) yesterday.

I can't believe the things that hit me. I guess I should have seen a long long time ago what I truly want in my future guy;

.Maturity, Financial stewardship & generosity, Teachability, Gift of Righteousness.

I've often wondered if love's an illusion, just to get you through the loneliest days I can't criticize it I have no hesitaion. Sometimes my imagination just stole me away.

Had a jolly time spent with friends from overseas! love you sputnik sweethearts!

My homemade TLC burger.... lol

2007-02-02T17:56:00.000+08:00

**Freedom Junkie**

Flu bug fly away... buhbye!...

You got me at "Hello.."

Thanks to Joakim I gotta know this song love it! Knew this newbie-singer,actor,dan

cer,hosts from *planet mars*. Was chatting online with him last night and he's sweet sweeet sweeeet! mr MRNICE-Guy.. well I dont know ..but it seems, he may be the youngest -most- dangerous laydee killer in Singapore. hurhur!

*Girls watch out! =p

Million thankies to Merv and
Jay-Zed who offered to dl this beautiful, spine-tingling sensual song for me! help much appreciated!

It's now the 2nd of Feb.. time, time, time ignoring rhythmic rhyme ! Days turn to weeks and to months and to years! A time to gain and a time to lose, a time to keep and a time to cast away.. oh yes.. do transform the monotonously dull space around me; into paradise divine!

It's been a month and I can't recall what I've been up to for the past few weeks..*grumbles*

believe it or not.. i'm officially a tutor of a lil cousin of mine.

*geez.. I gotto learn what creative teaching is all about! any ideas?

**Get Carried Away**

2007-01-28T08:37:00.000+08:00

Bonjour people.

It's 00:09 on a Monday morning and I'm here blogging while you peeps are dozing away in your slumberland.. *_*zzZ

oh well, I'm blessed with a no-school day today, SO here I am.. with more updates of my *life*.

FIRSTLY:

Alright dudes and dudettes, due to my friend's recommendations & of course my privacy, I'd added a chat-log on board. Which means we can chat up in none other than MY BLOG site as long as I'm log in. This chatango system works exactly like MSN showing me online OR offline. Not to worry it works nothing like a tag-board

And that means it will be secluded from the presence or view of others.

SECONDLY:

its..... PLAYTIME!! Recently, I had applied for voluntary work for the lil ones at KKH.

Found love beyond all reason and now the time has come for me to Spread my love around. It's now my turn to bless others. =)

Log on to:

http://www.kkh.com.sg/WaystoGivenVolunteer/Volunteers/

for enquiries.

Munching Musings.. and a few delectable treats

By the way...My tresses are now SHORT SHORT SHORT! To my collar bone and w/o split dry ends! .. it was a tough decision actually. Took me a couple months to consider and still.. I did it! Love the new style! Ever rejuvenated!

YOUTHFUL VIGOR FOREVER!!!

Still looking great? ^_*

Hugs* Love* & Kisses*

A Blissful week ahead to all.

2007-01-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

You Will Never Walk Alone

Along life's road

There will be sunshine and rain

Roses and thorns, laughter and pain

And 'cross the miles

You will face mountains so steep

Deserts so long and valleys so deep

Sometimes the

Journey's gentle

Sometimes the cold winds blow

But I want you to remember

I want you to know

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You will never walk alone

As long as you have faith

Jesus will be right beside you all the way

You may feel you're far from home

But home is where He is

And he'll be there down every road

You will never walk alone

The path will wind
And you will find wonders and fears

Labors of love and a few falling tears

Across the years

There will be some twists and turns

Mistakes to make and lessons to learn

Sometimes the journey's gentle

Sometimes the cold winds blow

But I want you to remember where ever you may go

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Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need

He will go the distance with you faithfully

Pearlyn says:

I know I'm never alone =)

Hey guys... What comes to your mind when the word HEART is mentioned?

My friends answered me with "BLOOD & LOVE". Isn't that true?

why BLOOD? because the HEART is the main organ that produces oxygenated BLOOD throughout your body and that gives you LIFE.

why LOVE? grinz.. I'm sure many of us are guilty of drawing the heart symbol when you're writing I LOVE Us to your love ones aye! ^_*

THE BONA FIDE VERSION

HEART = HEAR with a +
and the + = Christ

It means:

Hear Christ.

Listen to the Word of God to have everlasting Love.

For Jesus Blood had set us free.

Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need
He will go the distance with you faithfully

Pearlyn is Loved!

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So is Uni
my puppy's name sound so jap!

2007-01-19T22:17:00.000+08:00

*THE NEEDLE PHOBIA STORY*

"Hi Pearlyn... How have you been?" asked Dr Kwan. It's lovely having a family doc who's warm and friendly =) "Will it hurt?" I asked.

" a little perhaps you got to relax or you'll break the needle in your skin." said Dr Kwan with a huge grin and her maternal instincts.

Well well well.. I'd been feeling feeble for the past 2 days. Something happened to my right foot and it's now swollen with 2 open wounds. Don't prob! i'm not gonna tell u why. Its a tad too embarassing to begin with. -_-""""

so most assuredly.. I'll leave up to your imagination with your creative minds! It sure is bad enough for a 10ml anti-biotic shot into my veins 6 hours ago!

PAINFUL ??????? WAD do you think!!!

IMAGINE: Resting your arm on the doc's table, having a toothpick (only slightly smaller by 1 mm or 2) like needle insert into you skin and slowly into your prominent main vein. Slowly inserting more visible part of the needle deeper into your vein and releasing the medication a little at time. Pretty long and painful procedure aye!

=( *OUCH*

It's all bruised up after the painful shot.

Regardless, phobia and fear of needles won't be able to prevent me from living a joyful, healthy, vibrant life.

Walking by the journey to better health! Hugs and kisses!

2007-01-17T11:06:00.000+08:00

Daybreak

And the moon's still floating high

What a wonderful surprise

I close my eyes *_*

And dream of you

I'm dreaming at daybreak

And the world's so far far... behind

That's why I always find at daybreak when the sky is clear

I'm still dreaming of you

You're from above.. high high above

My one and only surreal love

There's no other..

All I want is sunrise

That's why it's true whenever daybreaks

I'm still dreaming of you

P.s: Trust beyond the physical =)

2007-01-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hey peeps.. hows 2007 doing for you? New year, new set of resolutions to try and keep. Look back and leap forwarrrddd!! It's been 11 days though! and I'm blessed with many "days-off" this term. Its Dad's birthday tomorrow.. He's 50-odd (well, a man's age is a secret too!) and he still look as youthful as he is in his 40s. and how did he achieve that? - with God's grace and favour, that's for sure!

Beautie Junkie! ^_*

My lil indulgence in books..

Mounting Desire by Nina killham has a funny take on the dating scene, and on how Americans complicate their lives by seeking an ideal instead of reality, is a highly amusing read. I'm captivated!

( publicising is highly important! note the no. of main covers a book has! this lil black dress book has 4!)

Hey y'all! I'm in love with adoration in this commercial of Chanel No.5. Presenting..... Nicole Kidman! My ideal female fashionista!Do have a peep!

Alright! And here's the latest post for da week. Follow up to my next post! You'll be missed!

Adios; have a blessed merry year ahead! =0)

2007-01-03T00:20:00.000+08:00

This novel. That Classic romance story that one has ever been told.. Romeo and Juliet.. They loved, They held in arms of melancholy, and..They died. It is also about the fate of the two "star-crossed lovers", who eventually take their own lives because of misunderstandings. You could say that Romeo and Juliet had just too much misfortunes and the play leaves you thinking "if only.." If only the messenger had delivered the letter, if only Juliet had woken up sooner.. there are so many unfortunate chances in the play. How surreal can that be..... Bizarre Love...

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Charles...had a hard time munching his xxxxxxtra flavoured chicken wings.. BooHoo! a taste of his own medicine!

Beverly's Para REMIX!! *sweets*

Foodies Paradise!

2006-12-30T16:40:00.000+08:00

Finally! able to post my post-Christmas parties pics! Connection was freakishly terrrrible for the past few days huh! Well, its a wakeup call for many Singaporeans.. perhaps only to my friends and myself, we realised that it wasn't as bored as we thought it would.. Days w/o the net were still as happy filly!! And my heart goes to the Taiwanese who both died & survived the earthquake =o(

thots: I've been analysing these.. My Dad knocked some sense into me yesterday as he said the year always ends with a BANG (in reference to 2004 Tsunami aftermath and this yr's Taiwan's earthquake) .. how ironic..We celebrated the birth of Christ on the 25th yet Taiwan's earthquake happened a few days later. Does this literally mean that the world is coming to an end??? o_O"""

24th Decenber 2006

23rd December 2006 Christmas Party @ My place / GrandMom's Baptism!

Look at the angels..... awwww**

GrandMom looks so cute! Congrats upon your rebirth you look gloriously BEAUTIFUL.. I LOVE YOU!

2006-12-25T00:47:00.000+08:00

For He is the only Baby Boy who died for our sins.. willingly

We are the reason

As little children we would dream of Christmas morn
Of all the gifts and toys we knew we'd find
But we never realized a Baby born one blessed night
Gave us the greatest gift of our lives

*We were the reason that He gave His Life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

As the years went by we learned more about gifts
The giving of ourselves and what that means
On a dark and cloudy day a man hung crying in the rain
All because of Love
All because of Love

We were the reason that He gave His Life
We were the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give
To show us the reason to live

I finally found the reason for living
It's in giving every part of my heart to Him (every part to Him)
And all that I do every word that I say )you know I'll be saying)
I'll be giving my all just for Him, for Him (everything for Him)

We are the reason that He gave His Life
We are the reason that He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give (all He could give)
To show us the reason to live

He is the reason to live
(don't you know do you know the reason
that He came, that He came to save us) He suffered and died
To a world that was lost He gave everyting (everything that He had He gave)
To show us the reason to live.

Don't know how I could thank Jesus all that He had all..

2006-12-22T00:52:00.000+08:00

2006-12-20T18:57:00.000+08:00

Oh YES! not to forget.... I bought a couple of Nana Diver's " nutri"bars and this cute lil crazee soury sweet called "Ooze ToobZ" - all from Candy Empire!

*candies are made of salt? "NO WAY!"
*we can have a proper filling 4 course meal by chewing gums?
*there really is a gum stopper?
*an unmelted candy is created?
*a candy that has oozey sticky liquid texture.. being created in the form of a tooth paste? and That! I've found!
here it is and it taste uberly yummylicious--- SOUR TO THE EXTREME! I like.... available in 2 flavours sour cherry and green apple=)

2006-12-20T00:14:00.000+08:00

Was at VivoCity yesterday.. and being girls, Xuan and I had.........* drumroll*..... Carnivore for dinner! It's a buffet spread and we really E.A.T - A.L.L - W.E - C.A.N!

WITH a name like Carnivore, you can be sure the latest restaurant in Chijmes & VivoCity is no place for a vegetarian (sadly). The Brazilian churrascaria is, you guessed it, for SERIOUS (no kidding) meat lovers as there are 15 different cuts of meat served per night. If you have eaten at Brazil Churrascaria, you will be quite at home at Carnivore. **All smiles!

Here's how it goes : At Carnivore, each diner is given a round disc with one side GREEN and the other RED. GREEN means bring on the meat and RED means you surrender. Flip it to show the GREEN side, and the passadors - waiters bearing a skewer of meat which he slices over your plate with a razor-sharp knife - will make a beeline for your table. ( YUMMY!! )

My buffet starter: salads of palm hearts and fresh greens to provide a light overture before the crescendo of meats arrive. I love my garden of greens!

Alright peeps.. Look at this.. YES! The yellowy, squeashy, mashy stuff that's on my plate.. guess wad is it? looks like sweet potato? Apricot Jam? Mango puree?? NO!more luck perhaps! It's mashed pumpkin! DO NOT belittle this HUGE scoop of yellow mash.. it taste.. WONDERSSS (note: many ssS).. It somewhat taste like creamy sweet potato with cream and cheese and a tinge of almond extract (sounds weird? u've got to try it yourself!) MY OH MY! I'm drooling as i'm typing though I just had it 4 hrs ago! >_<"

WE love the passadors psst* look how elated Xuan is? She's always this happy as they come... & go!

BTW, The meat is merely rubbed with rock salt before being grilled so that you get to taste its natural flavour. (think about.. NATURAL!)

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And if you feel, having dozen of cuts of meat being too filling and jelat, u can try other alternatives like.. Cream of cauliflower with cheese balls AND Buttered grilled Cod fish my all time fave!
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In between the meats, a passador will also come over with a grilled pineapple, which provides a welcome reprieve from the meats. Tasting a little smoky from the grill, the sweet and juicy fruit will also prime you for more food! Just look at the number of servings I had!

ADIOS! and Carnivore shall see me soon... REAL SOON!

2006-12-18T23:23:00.000+08:00

Took both pics on 2 different occasions.. Doesn't the vintage necklace look just great! It's a sparkly heart! Sweeeeet* I'll name it.. " the heart of stones" haha!
I've been hanging out alot! E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y! Shopping!! but truly Singapore ain't a shopping heaven! I miss Hongkong' shopping paradise like Tsim Tsia Tsui, Nu ren Jie and Kowloon! Gonna be there with Sharon darling next year! can't WAIT! Gotto seize the moment anyways as school's starting next week! oh dear!
Pearlyn misses Sharon!!!

2006-12-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

SIMPLY LEISURE

I LOVE PLANES! I LOVE PLANES! I'm going crazy and am so fascinated bout them that I don't mind travelling an hr on train or bus or even to splurge on cab fares just to get to Changi Airport, I'd buy a cup of hot soothing mocha from a cafe, with my lappie on my lap and a couple of DVDs, couching away watching movies at their newly renovated Terminal 2 viewing mall all by myself *sometimes*.....

Planes taking off and Planes landing **awww**... =)

Planes, Pilots and SIA Flight Stewardess simply *take my breath away* It's my aspiration to be one! 2 yrs from now that is!

High High.. High up in the SKY!

2006-12-14T01:02:00.000+08:00

SHAME ON YOU PEOPLE WHO BUY FUR CLOTHINGS & ACCESSORIES!
AND WE GIRLS STILL LOOK AWESOMELY GORGEOUS WITHOUT 'EM!
F**K! The following isn't easy to read. It's the brutal world out there for animals that are reared for furs. That's why there's an urgent need to educate myself and yours about the horror that many are supporting- an unethical trade.

The below passage is extracted from CLEO;
Do you know? Fur farms cram up thousand of foxes, minks, raccoons and other animals into tiny wire mesh cages for their entire lives. Animals are unable to move and are deprived of all that is natural to them, including exercise, sunlight and even the feel of grass beneath their feet.

These caged wild animals often get so frustrated that they end up biting off their own limbs and tails. And the poor creatures are made to suffer as they die: gassing, anal electrocution and even neck-breaking are the most common methods of killing animals raised for fur because this techniques protect the pelts from damage. Many creatures are in fact, still alive when they are skiined. One slaughterhouse worker says on the PETA website " The slaughter line has never stopped simply because an animal is still alive. They will still continue to skin them- alive without any pain killers or what so ever"

Knowing this, I can't understand why sales girls beam with pride when my Mummy ask them if an item is made from real fur. They go, "Yes its made from leather" Caged fur-bearing animals have to be unnaturally inbred for specific colours. But there girls standing behind their gleaming counters don't see how this mutation for animals for a pastel pink fur coat result in the animals born deaf, crippled, and with deformed sex organs.

THEY DIE IN MILLIONS
>> About 50 million animals are killed for their fur a year. The huge demand for it made humane treatment IMPOSSIBLE (GET THAT!)
>> France kills millions of rabbits a year in the name of luxury fashion. Farmers snap the bunnies necks or smash their skulls before stringing them up by their legs and cutting off their heads for their fur.

And if you're wondering: "Is there CRUELTY-FREE fur?
N.O- NO! While taking the fur of an animal who did naturally does not involve cruelty, it can lead to a problem -- if using fur becomes acceptable, a demand will be created. Farming small animals for their fur in appalling conditions is relatively cost-effective and most would choose this option.

Below are more links, videos and banners from PETA.
www.peta.org

Fur farm investigation narrated by Stella McCartney

2006-12-12T12:26:00.000+08:00

Life's awesome for me right now.. I need lots of rest and fun. am having my term break and I'm gonna spend it fruitfully! I've been into movie marathons lately, where? at home of course. What beats freshly popped butter popcorns, mash potatoes with cheese sauce and best of all everything is FOC! =) okay.. here it goes.. went to HMV(cityhall) yesterday and i came across this uber touching dvd.. it's called "Helen the Baby Fox" I was super-glued to it. IT was typically LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.. I cried and weeped and teared after watching.. Oh well.. this movie is beyond description and if you do not cry after the movie, you have no soul!!!

And here's the summary bot the movie
Early spring in Hokkaido, northern Japan. Taichi, a young boy who tends to be a dreamer, has just arrived from the big city to live with his mother's new boyfriend, a veterinarian, and his daughter. One day after school, Taichi discovers the cub of a northern fox crouching near the side of the road and despite the objections of those around him, decides to take care of the lovable creature. The baby fox cannot see, cannot hear and cannot bark. Even when offered milk, it just ignore. So Taichi names it Helen, after Helen Keller, the first blind, deaf and mute woman who was able to communicate using the sign language. Helen responds to Taichi's devoted caring efforts and begins to strive for live, in spite of her frail body. The boy and his veterinarian family watch over her with encouragement and love.

one word: KAWAIIIIII!

Candy floss is coming to town... every gal needs to satisfy their sweet tooth cravings.. don't they?

2006-12-09T01:48:00.000+08:00

2006-12-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

lalalalala~lala~~lala~~~
WhHaaM~ One GLORIOUS Christmas is just around da c'orner. So.. bring out da cocktails and whip up those colourful party treats!! I'mma gonna take the day off and make a date with my galfriends to Shop SHop SHOp SHOP!

Who can resist the yummy goodness of a fresh mango mousse cake?? Ha! Baked this on Tuesday! SUCCESSFULLLL!

You're one year older.. Happy Sweet 21st Sis..Huggies!

2006-12-02T00:18:00.000+08:00

Alright peeps.. I'm watching this Thai horror movie with my mum (abt a prostitute being murdered and her ssevered head was kept in an air-duct and this group of punk-rockers found the head and the horror begins...bah bah bah!) in the living room as i'm typing this. GOsh.. It's freaking me out... I wanna pee.. I wanna PEE! MOMMY ACCOMPANY ME TO THE TOILET will you (scratch head*)??? Oh well... Jesus is in me.. Thou shall not fear.. Amen? *bonkerz*

I'mma free wheeling urban youth!

2006-11-29T20:55:00.000+08:00

You are the whisper in my heart

Hey peeps, came across this email that my cousin sent to me.. Perhaps you've already read it.. But no harm reading it again!

This will give you the chills........GOOD chills.

A young man had been to Wednesday night Bible Study.

The Pastor had shared about listening to God and obeying the Lord's voice.

The young man couldn't help but wonder, "Does God still speak to people?"

After service he went out with some friends for coffee and pie and they discussed the message.

Several different ones talked about how God had led them in different ways.

It was about ten o'clock when the young man started driving home. Sitting in his car, he just began to pray, "God...If you still speak to

people speak to me. I will listen. I will do my best to obey."

As he drove down the main street of his town, he had the strangest thought to stop and buy a gallon of milk.

He shook his head and said out loud, "God is that you?" He didn't get a reply and started on toward home.

But again, the thought, buy a gallon of milk.

The young man thought about Samuel and how he didn't recognize the voice of God, and how little Samuel ran to Eli.

"Okay, God, in case that is you, I will buy the milk." It didn't seem like too hard a test of obedience. He could always use the milk. He stopped and purchased the gallon of milk and started off toward home.

As he passed Seventh Street, he again felt the urge, "Turn Down that street."

This is crazy he thought and drove on past the intersection.

Again, he felt that he should turn down Seventh Street.

At the next intersection, he turned back and headed down Seventh.

Half jokingly, he said out loud, "Okay, God, I will".

He drove several blocks, when suddenly, he felt like he should stop. He pulled over to the curb and looked around. He was in semi commercial area of town. It wasn't the best but it wasn't the worst of neighborhoods either. The businesses were closed and most of the houses looked dark like the people were already in bed.

Again, he sensed something, "Go and give the milk to the people in the house across the street." The young man looked at the house. It was dark and it looked like the people were either gone or they were already asleep. He started to open the door and then sat back in the car seat.

"Lord, this is insane. Those people are asleep and if I wake them up, they are going to be mad and I will look stupid." Again, he felt like he should go and give the milk.

Finally, he opened the door, "Okay God, if this is you, I will go to the door and I will give them the milk. If you want me to look like a crazy person, okay. I want to be obedient. I guess that will count for something but if they don't answer right away, I am out of here."

He walked across the street and rang the bell. He could hear some noise inside. A man's voice yelled out, "Who is it? What do you want?" Then the door opened before the young man could get away.

The man was standing there in his jeans and T-shirt. He looked like he

just got out of bed. He had a strange look on his face and he didn't seem too happy to have some stranger standing on his doorstep. "What is it?"

The young man thrust out the gallon of milk, "Here, I brought this to you." The man took the milk and rushed down a hallway.

Then from down the hall came a woman carrying the milk toward the kitchen. The man was following her holding a baby. The baby was crying. The man had tears streaming down his face.

The man began speaking and half crying, "We were just praying. We had some big bills this month and we ran out of money. We didn't have any milk for our baby. I was just praying and asking God to show me how to get some milk."

His wife in the kitchen yelled out, "I ask him to send an Angel with some. Are you an Angel?"

The young man reached into his wallet and pulled out all the money he had on him and put in the man's hand. He turned and walked back toward his car and the tears were streaming down his face.

He knew that God still answers prayers. AMEN!

2006-11-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

Till I SEE YOU
Hillsong united

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see
Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray
You'd let Your will be done
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are a voice that called the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And till I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

2006-11-27T23:09:00.000+08:00

Jesus.. Lover of My Soul..

I'm so so so happy.. Happy that I'm drowned in His Love, Drunk in His peace and Joy.. I'm feeling so... HIGH! Not by the intoxication of alcohol of course! but by Daddy God's LOVE.. as I'm saying this, I realised that the *highness* that comes from clubbing & pubbing is superficial..but the feeling of LOVE & BLISS that comes from Daddy God is EVERLASTING.. TO all, I name the Son of God, the Lord, the One and Almighty God... Daddy God! Know why? It's because His not only Jesus, God or the Lord who reigns my life... To me He's so close, so real, so evident, so splendid, He's the Father, the Daddy whom I know will never release His hand from mine.. He's the One man who's LOVE never fails...He's the lover of my soul... I LOVE YOU JESUS!

New Creation Church is so so so FAVOURed by God. Hillsong united specially came to our church last Saturday! FOR WHAT? AN AWESOME CONCERT OF COZ! WHOO!

2006-11-22T23:49:00.000+08:00

Cam Whoring?oh well, maybe..
Hey peeps hows life? 2 more weeks to go and my project's due phew! FINALLY the project fever is fadiinnnng awayyyy! AND.... I Can't wait for Hillsong United Concert this saturday.. At The Rock auditorium! It's gonna RAWK AYE! Lotsa and Lotsa photos to be taken!

Still SURVIVING!!
*****By the way.. I've had food poisoning for the past 2 days.. had been puking like crazy with a jab up my butt ouch* And this snapshot that was taken today looked surprisingly radiant! In Daddy God's name I'm healed!*****

In AWE of Happy feet! I wanna. I wanna.. I wanna... catch this movie...!!!

2006-11-20T19:50:00.000+08:00

Darling of Heaven...

I'm Pearlyn the Princess whom Daddy God Love! And with this Glorious love.. Everyone's looking ma way~

2006-11-19T00:44:00.000+08:00

Ever had boring Saturdays? Doing stuffs like surfing the net all day long, watching DVDs, munching the foodies off the shelves? Well yea.. thats how boring life is for me in the past. BUT NOT NOW! Life's AWESOME!
Had been busy lately .. with invites to attend, projects- one after another, sleeping at wee hours like 2-3ams and meeting up with pals and buddies for meals, dates etc.! whoo hoo! lets see..

Yesterday (saturday)- met up with my cousin for 007 movie and lunch at Lao BeiJing @ Plaza sing it was an invite.. so...their food was/is outrageously yummylicious! buffet style with lots and lots of dim-sum so..u got it.. we really EAT-ALL-WE-CAN!! By the way. the movie was great (worth watching)!!.. lotsa peeps said that Daniel Craig ain't fit to be the new James Bond, but I beg to differ.. he might not look good at first glance.. but he look uber suave with his masculine built and sky blue eyes!

And the gals go- OoooOh LaaALaaA!

Serenade Me Away

Outrageously yummy foodies

Dinner with the guys at OUTBACK STEAKHOUSE at Millenia =)

2006-11-12T22:19:00.000+08:00

MINISTRY . OF . LIFE (M.O.L)

The coolest event ever!! New Creation Church Youth Service! It's Hip hopppeerrsss night. it's a night to chill! and Everyone are dressed to *kill* !

Daddy God's Creation!
GORGEOUS PEOPLE FOR REAL!

All ready to knock it out!

How have you been peeps! Life's great for me! With Daddy God who never fails to with me, he'll remove every mountain and molehill in my life Amen!

URGHHHHH!!!!
Was in town today where I was talent scouted for modelling ads. This always happens whenever i'm in town. So.. i was in a bright and shine mood today busy shopping at Wisma when a girl stopped me from my fast walking phase and asked me to be engaged with ***** modelling company who happened to be looking for **new faces** well.. yes, flattered.. Thanks but NO THANKS! thats what i told her straight in the face with a WIDE WIDE SMILE! but guess wad.. she... QUESTIONED ME asking: "wad's the reason?" I was literally frustrated right away urgh~! with a *stop HOUNDING me look* I told her, wad business has it got to do with you and stomped off! Well peeps, know wad.. i'm not trying to be proud or arrogant wadsoever.. that's simply not me.. I tried telling her PPOOLLIITTEELLYY that I'm NOT interested. Can't these people get things straight to their brains? I mean, if they managed to get a hint or two and be nice.. I'm sure they won't be facing difficult gals like me! (not my fault!.. ain't my fault!)

2006-11-05T23:19:00.000+08:00

Not the 5th but the 7th of Nov 06

NIGHT OUT AT Bar Cacoon, Forbidden city Indochine on the 4th.. with my lovely pals that is.. =) grinz*
Had a great time with you peeps. Chill... more words in my next post I promise! Adios!

The Flaming Poisonnnn >_<"

He loves me He loves me not He loves me He loves me not He loves me! JESUS loves Me AWESOME L.O.V.E!

2006-11-01T23:24:00.000+08:00

And a gal's gotta do what a gal's gotta do!

Winkz =0)

2006-10-29T19:41:00.000+08:00

And you guys must be wondering... what have I been up to lately

Weekend's great! Spent it with great pals. How I wish there are 8 days a week.. 5 working days and 3 *take-a-break* days!

My Roomie RevampED!

All warm and cosy =)

Good ol' days when Violet crumble is a crave...

Bought Violet crumble at Candy Empire..
It's a combination of Sweet bitter chocolate coating that simply melt in your mouth with a huge chuck of caramel honey comb.... My HEAVENLY INDULGENCE!

2006-10-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

Pictionary, Pizzas, Mug, Chicken Wings and Calamaris at STEVIES and DAWNIES House! SHALOM!

Topple & Tumble!
Guess Wad peeps... my book shelf and wardrobe collapsed!! ***GASP! ***

CASE 1 : Was working on my laptop when I realised that the book shelf that was directly screwed on top of my work table was diagonally slanted to one side.. damn! I was shocked by what I saw.. Thank God I noticed it early or else.. (evil thoughts) tons and tons of books and wooden planks will be toppling down on my precious laptop. =(

CASE 2: While clearing the books off the shelf, I heard a LOUD "CLANK!".. I looked around and there was nothing amiss. Kept searching high and low..... And there! when I open my wardrobe clothes came toppling down due to the number of clothes that was stacked i guess =( Sigh... What a Saturday not only had I been down with cold, my wardrobe and book shelves were faulty too..
But still.. It was a blessing in disguise.. Know why?? Coz DADDY says I get to buy new ones! Yippee! WAHAHA (evil laughter***)

2006-10-19T23:52:00.000+08:00

*Sweeta Than You*

My Earring Chandeliar~ WhOOOtT!

She's Barbie the ULTIMATE BOMBSHELL..

Bought "The Barbie diaries" dvd outta e blue. Thanks to budbud.. The DVDs at HMV were so addictive sweets I wannnaaa buy 'em all.. urghhh!! Well, here's a really really short summary... It's a new school year for Barbie and friends.. It's filled with friendship and magic, super cool music, stylish fashion and, of course, ROMANCE!

[[[[[Uber Lameness... Absolute MADNESS!
Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
anyways
Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
do u know that theres subway at bishan
Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
it took over 711 that is opp LJS

CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
ouhhh !
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
they did ah
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
i was there last month and it was still 7-11 leh
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
but they didnt have much business
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
subway subs got too much veggies in them
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
i feel as if im biting into a bucket of lettuce

Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
its the healthier choice DARLING

CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
or whatever veggies they have there
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
yes. i understand
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
but we are OMNIVORES
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
i need MEAT
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
theres the meat too. and its like
MEAT 30 : 70 VEGGIES
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
cannot tahan
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
hahah

Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
yea... request for MORE meat then

CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
steeper prizes.
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
you ever tried going to your sch canteen and try to confuse the auntie there ?

Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
haha!

CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
i went up and went
" auntie, wo yao chicken chop. bu yao rou. jia cai "

Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
hahahhahhaha
Pearlyn - Project fever! [http://www.pearlyn-shadows.blogspot.com/] says:
thats uber funny
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
and i had this expression on my face
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
like i was darn serious in it
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
and the auntie really went to prepare it
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
hahahhahaha
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
and my friends are all mad people. but we are constantly trying to out-do each other in madness
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
and on that day, i did
CED says ; amelia, her sanguinary royal highness <-> BLEED BLEED BLEED says:
hahha

2006-10-09T21:35:00.000+08:00

Not the 9th BUT 15th OCT 2006

Z...

In God's will... If we're meant to be...
A special world for you and me
A special bond one cannot see
It wraps us up in its cocoon
And holds us fiercely in its womb.

Its fingers spread like fine spun gold
Gently nestling us to the fold
Like silken thread it holds us fast
Bonds like this are meant to last.

And though at times a thread may break
A new one forms in its wake
To bind us closer and keep us strong
In a special world, where we belong.

BOO! I'm BACK ...

CUTE-ass PUP!

Strawberry yoghurt with muesli!
It's gonna get messy coz it's Carls JR.. Famous star burger with CHilli beef fries.. OooH!

2006-10-08T21:07:00.000+08:00

try as he might he's unable to
speak he grabs her by the hair,
he strokes her on the cheek
the bed is unmade like everything is
dark little heaven at the top of the stairs
take me like that, ruin it all then build it again
by the light in the hall
he drops to his knees says please my love,
please i'll kill who you hate, take off that dress,
you won't freeze

one more night, that was a good one one more night,
i dreamed it was a good one one more,
one more night, that was a good one one more night,
the end should be a good one a good one

he starts with her back cause that's what he sees
when she's breaking his heart
she still fucks like a tease release to the sky,
look him straight in the eye and tell him that now,
that you wish he would die you'll never touch him again
so get what you can leaving him empty
just because he's a man so good when it ends,

they'll never be friends one more night,
that's all they can spend one more night,
that was a good one one more night,
i dreamed it was a good one one more, one more night,
that was a good one one more night, the end should be a good one a good one

2006-10-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

Embracing Singlehood. My wing bestie! I've found mine.. Have you?

Wickedly. Gloriously. Selfishly ME

Every gal needs a good pal. A wing bestie as I named it.
A wing bestie is a precious thing. She's your faithful sidekick who can scan a bar and know within seconds which men you'll fancy. When a relationship breaks up, a good wing bestie will retrieve your stuff from ur ex's place and a greattt wing bestie will dunk his tooth brush in the toliet bowl for good measure (**evil grins**).

She becomes the friend who'll force you to hang out when you feel fat, depressed and lonely. The girl who reminds you why it's important to eat right even if you're feeling unattractive because you'll never know how the night will end..

So forget "The ONE" and embrace singlehood; it's cooler than any fairy tale because. instead of waiting for a Prince charming to arrive, you get to write your own ending.. Well, I'm not implying that I'll be embracing singlehood for life.. but that's for now. till "the love of my life" comes. Till next time...

2006-10-04T23:30:00.000+08:00

Bring dreams to reality...

There are moments in life when you miss someone so much, you just want to pick them from your dreams and hug em for real. When the door of happiness closes, another opens. But often, we look so long at the closed door, we don't see the one which has been opened to us.
Don't go for looks, it can deceive. Don't go for wealth, it can fade away. Go for someone who makes you smile.. because a smile can do wonders. It can make a dark day bright.

2006-10-03T18:26:00.000+08:00

2006-10-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

2006-10-01T20:49:00.000+08:00

GLAM BANDS! SHOPPING SPREE!

It's Sunday... it's a morning with God... and an afternoon for shopping spree!(definitely) I'm in LOVEEEE with hair accessories!

THE MUG SHOP

2006-09-29T21:13:00.000+08:00

*Bewitched fairytale*

Yet.... Another heart tugging song.... *Mesmerized*

**If your heart's not in it**
Westlife

But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it

2006-09-26T20:15:00.000+08:00

Awww... what a cute lil thing..

Introducing you to.... Uni! Here's my lil pup of 8 years. He's like a baby! This Bichon Frise is lively and animated. He adores' being part of my family.. loves to play but is not hyperactive. he's often thrilled about constant human interaction. This lil Bichon frise of mine is a delightful and amusing companion! Love you Uni!

Oishii desu ne!

Apparently, Nuraine and I simply can't resist the fine desserts at Azabu Sabo... Green tea ice-cream rawks!

It's been a long time ever since I prepared dinner for my family say.. 3 weeks ago?.. and here're some dishes with "Gong pao chicken" yum.. well, the kitchen is still intact, still neat and sparkling clean!

Tip of the day: SCRUB SCRUB SCRUB! EXFOLIATE!!
Having a healthy looking crystal-clear skin is important.. this not only applies to gals but to guys as well.

Steps:
1. Moisten your face with water before exfoliating.

2. Use a loofah (face wash with exfoliant agents), exfoliating gloves or a synthetic scrubbing sponge designed for the face.

3. Rub your face with the loofah or sponge using circular motions. Avoid scrubbing under the eyes, because the skin there is thin and easily damaged by abrasive cleansers and exfoliating sponges (you don't want unsightly wrinkled eye bags!).

4. Rinse thoroughly with tepid water. Hot water is harsh on skin, especially delicate face skin.

5. Apply a moisturizer containing alpha or beta hydroxy acids. These acids will continue the exfoliating process, because acids cause additional dead skin cells to slough off.

6. If you find the steps a lil too vexatious for you... simply try an exfoliating mask. Make one by mashing up a papaya and smearing it on your face. The enzymes help exfoliate the skin. Rinse off thoroughly after 15 minutes. Tada! crystal clear skin.!

2006-09-24T18:00:00.000+08:00

Vanity Fair...

Invitation to.... Cleo Fashion Awards Party Dollipop! anybody?

**Buoyant** **Carefree** **Euphoria**

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I'll be missing you
Thinkin of the days, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I'll be missing you

Heartwarming..

Lil Rascal and Grandmommy!

Naughty Naughty! My skittish nephews! I LooVEee 'em!

2006-09-23T17:34:00.000+08:00

Me? A beauty guru?? how uncanny but am honoured... *grinz*

This sounds weird..but I'd actually received 37 anonymous emails asking about beauty and hair tips.. Pretty weird.. But this sounds fun! I'm gonna reply you peeps. Through my blog that is! *give me some time alright!* ...
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Is beauty skin deep? Nah.... I don't think so. I believe, beauty is something that has gotto do with Confidence. True beauty comes from the light in the eyes, a natural smile on the face, and the glow of good health that shines through the skin, regardless of age.

How do we achieve the true beauty that comes from the inside? Certainly not through skin peels, face lifts and botox injections! No matter how much we spend on that kind of procedure, we cannot erase the effects of stress, overwork, sleep deprivation, poor diet, exposure to toxins, and (yes!) unhappiness that show in our faces and mask our natural beauty.

.. Do you think Kate moss is pretty? Well, personally I don't really think so. Without a doubt, "she's the best-dressed cokehead the world has seen. Despite a drug charge last year, this Brit supermodel has returned to seal more lucrative modelling deals with Calvin Klein, Guess?, Stella McCartney and Versace among many others. Kate's earning are now estimated to be more than twice before the scandal. A real confident toughie!" So you see.. beauty is how you carry yourself infront of others. You may not be a tad of a looker but with the right poise, the grace, the confidence and the bliss that shine through you, any ugly duckling will be transformed into a lovely swan! Believe me! Friends out there who knew me well couldn't believe that the photo displayed on my secondary school ez-link card was me!! hah!

2006-09-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

As Promised... (from my previous post)

Soothing cordial... Vinto Terrino

Nerve wrecking Tequila Shot...

Coolest ambience at Indochine (Clark Quay)

And right before we went to ScanBizBar (Forbidden City), Nuraine and I chilled out at Azabu Sabo, a Japanese restaurant at Marina Square for some sweet desserts.. Its' Soft mango milk Ice cream (the mango puree that is drizzle on it is made with FRESH MANGOS) and Green tea Ice cream with soft, chewy glutionous rice ball and sweet thick red bean paste is HEAVENLY.... (outta this world.. I swear by 'em)

2006-09-21T11:15:00.000+08:00

All Sober... Almost..

I had a tad too much... way too much drink at ScanBizBar Forbidden City(Indochine Clarkquay).. Down a glass of Tequila shot, 2 glasses of alcoholic grapefruit punch (it's on the house from the English boss of Indochine!!!) and a glass of Vinta Terrino.. didn't leave the place till wee hours in the morning at around 2.30am... Was dead drunk by then.. Limbs, arms and lips felt numb all over.. My senses could not co-ordinate properly felt really woozy and my friends told me I was really emo and I CRIED!

We were their last customers so yes... you got it.. the whole bar crew saw.. but still they said I was adorable haha (well, at the very least this is a lil comforting.. outta so many embarassing moments) well.. anyways- two thumbs up for the crews there. They ensured the safety of their customers.. Apparently as far as I know 2 bar-tenders brought me up the cab with the company of my friends.. AYE! love ya peeps! Thank YOu!

** My laptop is playing tricks on me AGAIN! More pics in my next post! I promise!

*** And the question is..... Sleek straight or Crazy wavy locks? ***

2006-09-20T14:14:00.000+08:00

Never Too Far
Mariah Carey

You're with me
Til the bitter end
What we had transcends
This experience
Too painful to
Talk about
So I'll hold it in
Til my heart can mend
And be brave enough to love again

A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace

Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me
When I remember

Glittering lights
Incandescent eyes
Still preserved
In my mind In the memories
I'll find solace

Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
And I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
Though we can never be
I'll keep you close to me
And I'll remember

A place in time
Still belongs to us
Stays preserved in my mind
In the memories there is solace

Never too far away
I won't let time erase
One bit of yesterday
Cause I have learned that
Nobody can take your place
And though we can never be
I'll think of you and me
Always remember

Love
You're never too far

2006-09-19T17:19:00.000+08:00

Hi people... here are my updates bout yesterday's Zoo escapade.. My laptop is playing tricks on me again..More animal & creepycrawlies photos in my next post. ADIOS!

B.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l P.e.o.p.l.e
*A Picture speaks a Thousand words*

Monkeys & the Babes

*Identical sunnys*

Yeah... you ain't blind. there really is a pig behind us!

We ain't Madonna & Britney *Geeez*

A quarter Pearlyn and 3/4 Dawn makes up a whole.

Sweety Pies

2006-09-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

Awesome creatures...

2006-09-17T14:34:00.000+08:00

Welcome... To my life of music...

-Blind by Lifehouse.
I love this song, I love the lyric even more. It is simply my reality..
Well at the very least, I know I've been through that scenario before.
Hope you peeps will like it.. & perhaps just - sing along.. *grins*

It's 10:30pm and I can't wait to be in my Zoo escapade tomorrow... Gonna turn in now.. Sleep tight and Sugar Dreams peeps.. Adios!

Blind
by Lifehouse

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless
As you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain
I have to carry
A past so deep
That even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything
Would be like it was before
But nights like this
It seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
never thought we'd be here
when my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more
Than you'll ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it

That I loved you more
Than you will ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go
And I loved you more
Than you will ever know
When part of me died
Will I let you go

2006-09-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

My Aspiration..

I'm inspired to be a SIA flight stewardess.. when I was younger, I saw this group of ladies sashaying down the departure hall with an aura surrounding them.. Aww..they look... uber GORGEOUS!! Well, I was a kid back then.. outta curiosity I asked my mom:"mommy, who are they?" and Mommy said:" These ladies represents Singapore, they are the first Singaporeans whom tourists are going to meet!"

(fast forward...)

And then.... a few years later..I told myself: "Pearlyn, one day you'll be like them. Finely dressed in a kebaya with a neat swiss-hairdo and a dolly face serving passengers on-board with pure elegance and hospitality..." Geez... I can see myself doing this 2 years later. By the time, I'll be 20 (time flies...). Many asked, "why a flight-stewardess?" Basically, being a flight stewardess = the world is at your door-step.. it's an experience, the chance to experience new cultures and meet new people from all woks of life. Challenges that are real and exciting... And why SIA? well... because I'm proud to be a Singaporean... Ain't it great.. To have a red passport?

Oh well.. its 10:39pm... And I'm watching The Lake House for the FOURTH time.... Yes I LOVE the movie..
**There's one man I can never meet... Him, I would like to give my whole heart to...**

Delicious Creme Brulee (pronounced as- cream bruleh) & Ice-cream Sundae

Yum..My huge-ass WHOPPER

2006-09-15T15:22:00.000+08:00

Finally!!!! 4 DOWN and 0 TO GO! yes!yes!yes! exams are over.... Gonna EeeNNnnJJjjjOooYYyy myself next week...Can't wait to spend my Monday with animals yes i'll be going to the Zoo *grins*and off to Zouk on Wednesday =) well..its my virgin step to the clubbing world hope I'll enjoy myself though... [Zoo and Zouk (rhymes)]

Okei! Off to meet my Pop and Mom at Raffles Town Club for dinner... ADIOS! =)

IMPORTANT:

Hey peeps I bought a pair of heels from Charles&Keith a few days back...And guess wad... I bought the wrong size.*darn* This pair of heels is size 7, it's perfectly new, as you can see, it's pearly white, no scratches and has yet to be worn. C&K is selling it at $39.90 and I'll be selling it at $30. GALS if you're interested or GUYS if you wanna buy this for your girlfriend, mum, sis, sis-in-law, whoever it is... kindly EMAIL me at: pearlyn_shadows@hotmail.com

Scrumptuos Teabreak:
Sky Flakes crackers with Mable's Fruit&Nut cheese and a hot fragrant cup of green tea = HEAVENLY!

To: Joyce, Sheena and Candice.. here's a peep at my collection of beads necklaces.. IT'S IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME TO BRING THEM OUT Sweeties =)
!

2006-09-14T11:07:00.000+08:00

Alrighty.... Its 2pm and I'm all ready to hang out and mug with Nuraine... I'll be back. =)

Pink-Chan was born..
Well well.. Spoke to one of the HDHM (Higher Diploma in Hotel Management cool aye?) guys on MSN last night.. And he told me about the nickname that was given to me by his group of guy friends for the past few weeks and suprisingly it's still in-use till this very day.. There's a cute lil theory behind it.
To cut it short.. Here it goes..:

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
actually we had no idea wads ur name

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
so we gave u a nick name

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
we still use it till this day

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
erm... just in case u r offended

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
itz yet another complement

Story . Unforgettable . Ever says:
is it crude... or rude... or shocking?

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
do i look like the sort that will give a rude, crude, shocking nickname??

Story . Unforgettable . Ever says:
well i dont know..i've not seen u guys in sch until recently..the day when u guys called after me

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
itz not tat u haven seen us

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
itz u haven NOTICE us

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
itz a fun name

Story . Unforgettable . Ever says:
okay...shoot..

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
we called you... Pink-chan.

Story . Unforgettable . Ever says:
pink - chan?>>>??
whads that

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
well...chan is a term used in japan sorta like san but used more for skooling between classmates and all

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
ya and pink

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
pink is the colour of ur hair band that u're wearing that day..

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
and i explained the same theory to the rest of the guys

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
hmmm i remember that day

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
we were going round the skool selling those smiley badges
and we were outside the library
and tatz when WE SAW U!!!
not knowing ur name

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
ur hairband stood out the most

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
and pink-chan was born..

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
suddenly one of the guys just said out aloud when i was telling them abt the pink-chan theory "SHE IS CALLED PEARLYN OK?"

*~*N.O.R Valentine*~* says:
ya shocking but true it is still in-use till this day.. only the grp of guys noe abt pink chan the rest of my class r still scratching their heads

Story . Unforgettable . Ever says:
ha! wad a nick! its really funny i'm gonna fall off my chair anytime soon..it's been long time since i laugh heartily..

So.. this is the theory about My bands and I. =)

2006-09-13T21:40:00.000+08:00

*Pick a place I'll be there I promise*

The Lake House never fails to tug my heart-strings... Yes I know, its been long since its last screening. To me it's one of the most enchanted and mesmerizing movie of the year.. Watched it thrice.. **Whoever you are [MR.I don't know who].. Listen up.. Here's a lil wish "I wish and pray that I'll be able to catch this movie with my special someone" and that's for the future... ha!

Korean Series:

It's an indulgence watching korean drama series.. I'd watched quite a number of them.. Winter sonata, Stairway to heaven, Glass shoes, etc... they are often weepy stories with scripts that has the main characther either knocked down by car, van, lorry, train (perhaps by a spacecraft by 2046) OR by fighting against leukemia, heart failure, brain damage, blindness and the list goes on with Choi Ji Woo crying her heart out ..Argh!....

Watching Winter Sonata never fails to make my mum weep- THRICE. Of all, my favourite is My lovely sam-soon.. Its carefree, humourous and romantic... lotsa mouth-watering suave guys and pretty babes in the cast! ( showing in Channel U Mon-Fri 10pm it's at its' last episode anyways!)

2006-09-12T20:42:00.000+08:00

3DAYS more to- PARTY TIME!

Hi peeps.. I'm back to update.. 2 paper down and 2 more to go! Whee!!! Have been hanging out with friends to mug lately(as usual) went to tcc, Coffee bean and National Library.. YES! its the N-A-T-I-O-N-A-L L-I-B-R-A-R-Y for christ sake! And only 2 out of the multi-storey ( is it 13 or 14 storey?) building are dedicated for mugging!! It's a sunday morning, it's FULLLLLLLYYYYY packed **&^#^&**!!!!! And we've wasted a trip! Sigh~ =(

No time to waste! And we head to the nearest Coffee bean available at Bugis Junction.

My LlOooVvvEeeLllyy cup of Black Forest ice blended... It never fails to perk me up after a long~bad~day.. I'll be back for more updates that is 2 days later.!

Shadows:

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

*The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return*

I'm confused.. Did the Special him received what he's suppose to receive??

2006-09-09T18:10:00.000+08:00

Mugging..

This is my life right now... Nothing else but mugging. Exams, exams, exams... Books, pen, lecture notes, laptop, table, chairs, myself! Tata! I'm surrounded by MATERIALS!!!
*Anyways, I've some enquiries by friends who wanna tag my tagboard. Peeps .. If u wanna tag, simply email me at- pearlyn_shadows@hotmail.com. =)

Spent my morning and afternoon with Hengyong and Budbud. We mugged the whole day at Bishan Library and had a LATE lunch date after that *Waha!*

Our "yummy leftovers" at pastamania...

And here's a candid shot of Hengyong! WOoOoOT!

And when I got home in the evening.. Guess who I found? A cute little pixie Shany! She's my neighbour anyways...

*SmoOoOoch*

2006-09-08T20:41:00.000+08:00

Exams Fever...Mugging, mugging and mugging for my exams that are next week! Oh Dear! God bless me!

My Lil Wishlist..

2006-09-07T23:02:00.000+08:00

The Path of Moving On....

The Past
Bishan, AngMoKio,YioChuKang... YioChuKang, AngMoKio,Bishan.. each and everytime when the train pass by YCK to and fro from school, I'll never fail to look out eagerly at that building standing across the station.. Hoping to get a glimpse of him..(If only I could)..

But like I said, that's the past. Frankly, for the past 1 month, I've been capturing special moments of my daily life. I'd compiled it into a Photo-Journal starting from the 3rd of August to the 20th of November 2006.. Reason is -despite not being together for more than 3 months, not contacting for 110 days, I wanna let him know what's going on in my life- (the ups and downs, delightful and not-so delightful, fun and dull moments..) But sadly.. he failed to receive it...
Here's a peep:

The Present
I've moved on with life with someone special.. To be honest, it wan't easy.. Every now and then, places that I've been to, people whom I've spoke to reminds me of him. As the saying goes "Time Heals Everything"- thats uber true.

Day by day my heart is healed... By whom? "By God, by Time, by Special Him, by friends, by Daddy, Mummy, Valerie and Desmond.. Lastly Myself. Without you people.. I wouldn't have the courage to move on.. Perhaps you didn't know you did..But you certainly did! I LOVE YOU(sssss)!

This is my last recollection of him. Looking back at the past with a positive mindset..being with him is like a memoir.. filled with beautiful, splendid, unforgettable memories.

P.s. To WH if you're reading this.. I wanna say Thank you. Though its only a short 458 days, Thanks for being a part of me..I really did enjoy myself being with you.. No regrets *grins*

Back to Reality

I dreamt of you last night.. having fun.. and private moments together*grins* It was sweet.
I think... I'm in love.... (Am I?) Am I ready to accept someone new in my life? Am I ready to go all the way for you without feeling the fear, doubt and hurt of my past relationship? Am I really ready?

What feels like love to one person may be nothing more than attraction to another. Some people fall in and out of love quickly and often while others are never really in love as much as they are in lust. Do you ever wonder what is going on in your current relationship. Is it love, lust or bust?

Take me away
This time all I want is you
there is no one else
who can take your place
this time you burned me
with your eyes you see past all the lies, hurt and pain
you take it all away
I've seen it all
and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away

I've got nothing left to say
just take me away
I try to make my way to you
but still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do
I've seen it all and it's never enough
it keeps leaving me needing you
take me away
take me away...

Betty Boop Look!

2006-09-05T23:24:00.000+08:00

GeeZz.. This sounds cheezy but friends say this is my new Betty Boop look! ha!

Mission POSSIBLE 1 ! (hush! Hush! aint suppose to say anything now.. TOP SECRET! I'll have to update about this tomoro!)

2006-09-05T21:00:00.000+08:00

A Tribute to Steve Irwin

Not many people make this journey. The trek is long. The path is dangerous. Poisonous plants can infect the flock. Wild animals can attack the team.

There are narrow trails and dark valleys. Some chose the security of the barren pastures below. He knows the paths. He knows the risks. He walked this trail many times. Besides, he was prepared to even lose his life.

Steve Irwin understood this annual pilgrimage. Yesterday 4th Sep 2006, news reported that a stingray shot its poisonous barb into his heart. He died at the age of 44. This is one man who brought the world closer to the wildlife....

Sigh~ I've watched Animal planet ever since i'm a primary school kid. Steve Irwin you'll be missed by many.. =0/

2006-09-04T22:49:00.000+08:00

Life In Mono...

The stranger sang a theme,
From someone else's dream
The leaves began to fall
And no one spoke at all
But I can't seem to recall
When you came along...

The tree-lined avenue
Begins to fade from view
Drowning past regrets
In tea and cigarettes
But I can't seem to forget
When you came along...

I'm counting down... One more week to my term break WheeEE! And my lecturer surprised me with a NO SCHOOL DAY on my Big day.Waha! I've got my 1 week break planned.

Here it goes...
Starting from 18th Sep to 25th sep 06!
Monday- gonna spend my day with animals and have a mini picnic there (Zoo with my budbuds)
Tuesday- Busy! Preparation for BBQ that is held on Thursday or Friday (shopping at carrefour perhaps)
Wednesday- Partying at MOS with my gals and guys
Thursday- BBQ? or Preparation? I don't know...
Friday- Hanging out with friends for pedicure and SHOPPING!
Saturday- Perhaps.. gonna head down to Forbidden city at Clarke Quay
Sunday- Spending my Day with God
Monday- Finally ! 25 Sep! It's MY DAY!! yipppee! Officially 1??( I shan't tell ya!)!

2006-09-03T20:41:00.000+08:00

As promised....

Viven.. Here's a photo of my new table...
Hope this mini revamp of mine
will help you with yours!
God Bless! Smooch!

2006-09-03T15:13:00.000+08:00

BACK HOME =)

Hey peeps.. I'm back! Spent my morning with God today.. And my afternoon with my budbud! Yes peeps.. Notice the difference bot my blog?
You got it.. I've removed my tag board. Seems like people are misusing it. =(

my BUD BUD and I!

I miss you BUD BUD!

WHATS WRONG?

What's wrong with taking special and happy moments that occured in my daily life? Whats wrong with pictures that features my lifestyle? Whats wrong with taking pictures that are worth capturing? I'm sure all of us do the same, spending time with friends, having good meals with pals, taking pretty pictures of oneself that is worth remembering.. This digicam lies in my hand not yours. This is MY BLOG. If you aren't please with it, by all means - DON'T READ IT.

Its simply saddening to see one who don't know me at all saying things like, "another pretty girl who only capture images of her posh and beautiful lifestyle". That makes no sense. Ask yourself! Would you actually post ugly, obscene, images-that-are-not-worth-viewing into your blog for the world to view? DEFINITELY NOT! Human beings are creatures who want people to know about their beautiful side. Unless you're a saddist, by all means.

P.s. To ALEX who left a message at my tag board. Whoever you are I don't recall knowing you by name. This blog is specially created for friends who do know me and would like to know what's going on in my life. And whether or not my life is posh is none of your business. Get that! Its simply saddening to see guys who are saddistic like you..

2006-09-02T16:41:00.000+08:00

AM I READY? YES I AM!

If you're sitting

Time to get up

Sippin' on something

Drink it up,

Hit the floor

And dance around

Chill 'out cuz its a PARTY!

2006-09-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

Wonders Of The Berry World

WOW! I finish 2 punets of strawberry and blueberries all at 1 go! Yum! It's deliciousSS

????????????
Do you know.. Both strawberries and blue berries contain a range of nutrients, with vitamin C heading the group. They also contain significant levels antioxidants, which fight free radicals. These antioxidant properties are believed to be linked to what makes the strawberry bright red...

Women will love em. It helps u with ur complexion.. Prevent wrinkles and helps keep your skin ever glowing and youthful! I L.O.V.E BERRIES!

Yes you may find berries a lil too sour for your liking.
Here are some ways where you can feast on them (hassle free) :

1) Feast on them with candy floss..
( Finger lickin GooooOOOD)

2) Mix both berries with a cupful of yogurt...
(Lips Smackingly goOOoDD)

3) OR simply feast on them with a dip of sinful melted chocolate!
(Heavenly!)

LOVE YOURSELF. LOVE YOUR SKIN. LOVE THE BERRIES!!!

2006-08-31T21:34:00.000+08:00

2006-08-31T10:03:00.000+08:00

It's A Jungle Out There. L.O.V.E Y.O.U.R.S.E.L.F

Wonder if you could imagine urself in a jungle. A dense jungle, a dark jungle. Sound interesting? Lets take a tiney winey step further. You paused to lace your boots, and when u looked up, no one was near. You look right and left and then right again.. now, you are wondering if the others went to the left. (or did you go left and they go right?)

Whatever it is... You are alone.And u've been alone for, well, you don't know how long it has been. No matches. No flares. No food. You aren't equipped, but now you are trapped - you haven't had a clue how to get out. Sound like fun to you? lets pause and ask how you would feel.

Fear? of course!
Anxiety? Definitely..
Anger? I could understand that..But most of all, what abt hopelessness? - No idea where or who to turn to..

This marks the emotional downturn of my life. Things went totally wrong. The sense of hopelessness dwell in me on my way home.. I thought I would cry when I got home... But I couldnt.. I was NUMB. I do know I've got to move on and am ready for it =) This is it, A point of no return...

P.S To my friends out there.. Thanks for tagging.. I'm encouraged =)

Silent Nights And Solitary Days

2006-08-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

Silent Nights and Solitary Days..

Adios.... Ever felt lonely? Yes that's right.. The feeling of loneliness sucks..Loneliness is not the abscence of faces. It is the absence of intimacy. Loneliness doesn't come from being alone; it comes from feeling alone. Feeling as if you are... perhaps.. facing death alone? facing diseases alone? facing the future alone.

"I feel so alone, does anyone care?" Bags of loneliness shows up everywhere.. They litter the floors of pubs and clubs. We drag them into parties and usually drag them back out. You'll spot them near the desk of the studious overworker, beside the table of the overeater, and on the night stand of the one night stand. As humans, we'll try anything to unload our loneliness. This one is one bag that we want to drop quickly.

When u're lonely, you do the same in life.. pulling stuffs off the shelf, not because you need it, but because you are hungry for L.O.V.E. ... And why so? Because we fear facing life alone. For fear of not fitting in, we take drugs..(There goes drug addicts). For fear of standing out, we wear the clothes... For fear of going unnoticed, we dress to seduce or to impress (there goes the shopaholic) For fear of sleeping alone, we sleep with anyone (there goes the"one-night-standers"). For fear of not being loved, we search for love in all the wrong places...

As the saying goes.. "But all that changes when we discover God's perfect love. And perfect love cast out fear".
Loneliness.. Could it be one of the finest gift? To make one learn to grow? Say.. learn to be more independent? or mature? If a season of solitude is His way to teach you to hear his song, don't you think it's worth it?
So do I.

To my Dear Sweet pixie Fangwen, one day when you do feel lonely do remember me.. though there are a couple of emotional troubles that are hard for me to digest at this point of my life... I'll still and will be.. There for you...

2006-08-30T13:51:00.000+08:00

Nuraine and I and yes.. we did enjoy our time there.... =)
Yum Yum Candy floss
"I WANT LIBERTY SANDWICH"!
D.I.Y Candy floss machine.. An amazing concept isn't it?
Recently I went to .. newYork newYork..

2006-08-30T13:22:00.000+08:00

And I did..!!!
Turn me "ON" if you can!
Astro Boy... Is this the only shop in Town?
L.O.V.E C.U.P.S ( I have these at home!)
Time Is Fire In Which We Burn.... Thats uber true..

2006-08-30T10:56:00.000+08:00

I wish.. I hope.. I ponder..
So much over it..
This is the day when I saw you once again..
With them.. Or should I say, with her..
I felt it was normal..
For you to hang out with them.
I felt perfectly fine..

But what I know was a different story.
I heard her picture was in your phone as a display..
I chose to give you the benefit of doubt.
But to my avail, things are pointing to the wrong direction..
Time & time, I saw you guys together..
And each time when I saw you, you never fail to look flustered.
I know that there's another guy around.. But so what?
Yes! "Pearlyn, YOU SHOULDN'T JUMP INTO CONCLUSION"
NO "Pearlyn YOU SHOULDN'T PONDER SO MUCH OVER IT,
YOU GUYS HAVE BROKEN UP!" - Thats what i always tell myself..

But hey.. I've not move on.
I don't wanna add on to your stress..
But right now, you are adding on to mine..
Your so icey attitude towards me is so hard for me to bear.
At least, at the very very least..
Tell me, what's on your mind..
Are you in love with her?

I'm so, so afraid that I'll fall into depression..
Till now, I still hope and wish and pray that 1 day you'll come back for me..
That the 3 months is still on.
Is our 1 year 3 months relationship over just like that?
At this point I feel betrayed by you..
I don't hate you Darling..
I hate myself for loving you.. much too much..

2006-08-30T10:43:00.000+08:00

That day when I skipped class for you.. That day when flowers fall.. How come I couldn't see.. The disappearing rainy sky? I really wish tp be drenched again. Never thought that I still keep the courage I've lost.. Really wish to ask again.. Will you wait or leave?

The day of the stormy rain.. I tried to hold on to your hand.. But yet the rain gradually fell.. Heavy to the point I couldn't see you.. How much longer? Before I can be by your side? Waiting for the day when it clears.. Maybe I'll be a bit better..

In the past, In the past.. There was someone who loved you for a long time.. But yet the wind gradually.. Blows the distance apart.. It's not so easy.. To once be able to love for another day... But at the story's end.. It seems you still said.. Bye Bye..

2006-08-29T22:46:00.000+08:00

Kaifen and I at Marina's sakae...

My lovveeelLLly table
Sweet pixie Fangwen on the day of our badminton and mini picnic. Swinngg

Misc....

2006-08-28T22:34:00.000+08:00

Many of my friends had asked me to update my blog.. SOrry peeps have been really busy with lotsa projects to be completed and exams coming up. Gonna have my break 3 weeks later and a couple of friends are coming home from overseas--> this means.. Partying partying and lotsa partying.. WhHHEEEe!

Had been trying to upload my pics. But I dunnooo WHY all the uploading sites ain't working everytime I try. guess there's a mass network conspiracy. =( (I'll return as soon as I can peeps (or when my laptop stop playing tricks on me)

P.s. To the guy who gave me a bouquet of flowers.If you're reading this.. Thank You heaps. Its gorgeous..

2006-08-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

OHHLaAA!! Today.. I had a mini picnic and badminton cum basketball session with my beloved pixie Fangwen... Time flies really fast with her around. Sweets! i miss ur peanut butter jam with banana sandwich! Tried making it at home but it aint as good as urs! I miss u so much!MOre pictures coming up!! I PROMISE

2006-08-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

"Perfect moment"

this is my moment
this is my perfect moment with you
this is what God meant
this is my perfect moment with you

i wish i could freeze the space in time
the way that i feel for you inside
this is my moment
this is my perfect moment with you

tell me you love when you leave
you're more than a shadow that's what i believe
you take me to places i never thought i'd see
minute by minute you're the world to me

i wish i could frame the look in your eyes
the way that i feel for you inside
this is my moment
this is my perfect moment with you

and if tomorrow brings a lonely day
here and now i know i've haven't lived in vain
i'll cry my tears in the rain and if love never come again
i can always say i've been to paradise skies in your
so tell me you love the moment you leave
you're more than a shadow i've got to believe

2006-08-24T23:16:00.000+08:00

This song is simply lovely....
VERTICAL HORIZON
Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had
So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely
Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had
And it may take some time to

Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring
What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had